Life in General

For those of you who read this, thank you. Your time and comments mean a lot. They almost make writing this worth while.
Big news this week is that I will most likely be heading to Thailand during my spring break. WOW!!! Nothing like a trip half way around the world to scare the crap out of you. OK, so I'm not that scared, but it will be diffrent than my previous missionary experience. On this trip I will be a complete outsider, I won't know the language, and there will be no "adult" chaperones along. It will be just one more case of God pushing me out of my comfort zone this year. To be completly honest, I have never been more uncomfortable, more stressed out, or more dependent on God than I am at this very moment.
Another idea that just came about this evening was the thought of creating a diffrent blog composed of stories of love and thoughts on love. I've started reading C.S. Lewis' book, "The Four Loves," and I thought it would be good to get others thoughts on love. Feel free to leave a ton of comments.

So until next time......take 'er easy.

Roll With The Changes

Wow! College! New! Exciting! Ok, enough with the excamitory statements. College has been amazing so far. Two weeks in and I have already met my future wife. Ok, that's not entirley true. In fact, I haven't been hanging out with very many girls which, if you know much about my friends from Willmar(mostly females), is odd. Oh well, that leaves more time for important things, like music. I have a ton of free time and, being a music major, I use them to play guitar. Home work hasn't been too bad(so far).

Something else new is that I have the opportunity to go to Thailand during spring break. The leader of that trip lives on my floor and has been pressuring me to go. It may just happen. Well, I need to get some sleep. So, until next time, have an awesome week/day.

P.S.: I try to title all of my posts with a title of a song. If you can guess the name of the artist, leave a message. Have Fun.

Time to Move on

Well, it has been some time since my last entry. It seemed my life was busy, but i can't recall with what. Graduation had something to do with it. Now that its over(exception:the ceremony itself) i should have more time to do the things i want to do. I start working on Monday. i have three jobs lined up for this summer, all part-time. This should give me a nice change of pace. As for music, i am still doing my best on many diffrent worship teams, but i find myself wanting more stability in the people i play with. I want to play with other musicians enough to know what he/she will do in a paticular situation. I find being in a serious band intreguing, something i would love to experience. God will put me where he wants me though. In the field of women: no new changes, but i can't help but have haope for the future. I have a few girls that i am intrested in dating, but i am still waiting for more direction from God on this matter. Above all, i am trying to serve Him in all i do. He will put me where i need to be and with whom i need to be with as long as i surrender to Him. Just too reitterate, I am happy for graduation and the new places God is taking me. It will be good to get out of this town for a while, to change. Only God can bring about true change, so i'm believing Him for it.

Thank you for taking the time to read this. May God bless you for your part in my life.

Lose Myself

It has been a while since i've added anything to this site, so here it goes. last night, i went to the Cool Hand Luke concert at Club 3 Degrees. It was a great show all around. The opening band, Beside Still Water, was from Fargo and they sounded good. The second band, the Myriad, was amazing. I thought they may even out do the headliner, but i was wrong. Cool Hand Luke was incerdible. The music was so well written and the overall message was not one of preaching, but one of a sincere love that can only come from God. The Holy Spirit was obviously working on a few hearts. Mark's message seem to connect to everyone. After the concert, we brought Andrew Cook back to his dorm room and proceeded to go home, or so we thought. We took a wrong turn somewhere along the line and lost our way. The miles of road construction didn't help at all, we couldn't find an exit anywhere. We ended up finding a gas station and, contrerie to popular belief, three MEN asked for directions. While we were lost, i remembered how i felt. I thought how much worse it would feel to be on the road of life and not have a map or even know where one is going. just something to think about.

All Hail the Heartbreaker

Listening to a song by the group calledThe Spill Canvas, one of the lines hit me. The song is "All Hail the Heartbreaker" and it seems as though it was written from a guy to a girl. The guy has a broken heart and this song is his "last word" in the relationship. This is what i took the song as. I was looking for a song of this nature because of recent events. I was enjoying the song when the last phrase hit me; "...you've got me down on my knees and i proclaim, all hail the heartbreaker." then i asked myself, "who breaks more hearts than God?" not in the bad sense, he has a reason for it. Maybe it is because our plans didn't work out the way we wanted(my case), or your heart has been broken by the opposite sex(my case), or the death of a loved one(my case); all our hearts have been broken at one time or another. Who do you think is controling this crazy universe we live in? we have free choice, but he controls our consequences. Everything that happens to us is meant to draw us closer to him. So in regards to recent events, ALL HAIL THE HEARTBRAEKER

Die Tonight

Death is unbelievable. Three frinds of mine have died before their 19th birthday. No graduation, no college, no life after high school. My only comfort is knowing that God was not surprised by this. He didn't plan anymore days for those boys. God's love is eternal.

desperately wanting

most of the people that stay up to date with this blog are people that i care about and who care about me. i want to tell you how my life has been lately. dry, empty, alone, and callosed are a few words that describe the way i feel at the moment. God is putting me through something i never thought i could endure: feeling nothing. please pray for me.